Three months and counting.

Woot. After three months of medical school, have I gained anything?

The much sought after price for many, I still feel as if I have learned next to nothing. Where has all my drive gone? Almost seems like every effort I put into reaching this point left as soon as the acceptance came through.

Four and a half more years left. So how will I get through all of this? And will I make a good doctor after it all? Will I even qualify as a doctor?

So many questions. Better find my drive asap. Or it will not end well.

Daydream

The interior of the restaurant was dimly lit. But the rich mahogany interior, and luxurious decorations could be made out even in the low light. Looking around self-consiously you look for someone to speak to. Hearing some voices coming from what appears to be the kitchen, you wonder whether you should knock. Or would that be bad form? Suddenly, the kitchen door swings outwards and a six feet plus blond Adonis walks out. You can see the moment when he notices you, standing in the dim foyer. What must you look like to him you wonder. Wild black hair, that refuses to stay put. Black jacket, and messenger bag clutched in your hands.

"Good evening...” he drawls, "or rather, good..."

"afternoon" you finish with him.

"That’s right.,” he says with a flicker of a smile, "what can I do for you?"

"I am just wondering whether you might be hiring at the moment."

"Do you have a resume?"

"Right here" You reach for your bag, and flips through the stack of paper until you get to the right one.

"Or a cover letter would be welcome as well."

"I have it all here."

He flips through your resume. "I will give this to my manager downstairs. What is your name by the way?"

"Angela"

"I'm Taylor"

"Nice to meet you" you smile up at him, and you shake hands. His felt warm and strong, and strangely made you fell like smiling.

You thank him, and you walk out of the restaurant into the sun with a smile on your face, and daydreaming about the nice boy you just met.

7:00 pm, your phone rings and you answer.

"Hello?"

"Hi! This is Taylor..."

Fish... lots of Fish. :P

Summer! Cannot believe it has been 3 weeks since the end of 2nd year already. It as been such a fun year. Now that it's over, I feel a little sad... next year I will be in a different university, in a different country, studying a different subject. I guess it is always very sad when we have to say goodbye to the people we care about the most.

On to less depressing topics. I have been going fishing with my dad a lot these days. I think he's slightly jealous that I usually catch bigger fish than him. :P It is actually pretty fun... unless you don't catch any that is.

DBSK Why have I fallen in love with you lyrics!!

Doushite Kimi Wo Suki Ni Natte Shimattan Darou? (drama vers.) - DBSK

Doushite Kimi Wo Suki Ni Natte Shimattan Darou? (drama vers.) - DBSK Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou? Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi Afuredasu kotoba, wakatteta no ni (mou todokanai) Hajimete deatta, sono hi kara Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shitan da Amari ni shizen ni tokekonde shimatta futari Doko e iku no ni mo issho de Kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de Bokura wa futari de otona ni natte kita Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni (mou kanawanai) Tokubetsu na imi wo motsu kyou wo Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo Kirei na sugata de kami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo Boku ja nai hito no tonari de Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo Boku wa dou yatte miokureba ii no darou? Mou doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? Ano koro mo, bokura no koto, mou moderenai (kangaeta) mou modorenai (kangaeta) Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou? Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto Boku no yoko ni, iru hazu datta (sono mama nii) Sore demo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto Tada negatteru Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikutemo (setsunakutemo) どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう どんなに時が流れても君はずっとここにいると思ってたのに でも君が選んだのは違う道 どうして君に何も伝えられなかったんだろう 毎日毎晩募ってく思い あふれ出す言葉 わかってたのに もう届かない はじめて出会ったその日から 君を知っていた気がしたんだ あまりに自然に溶け込んでしまった二人 どこに行く乗りも一緒で君がいることが当然で 僕らは二人で大人になってきた でも君が選んだのは違う道 特別な意味を持つ今日を 幸せ顔で立つ今日を きれいな姿で神様に願ってる君を 僕じゃない人の隣で 祝福されてる姿を 僕はどうやって見送ればいいのだろう どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう あの頃の僕らのこと もう戻れない（考えた考えた） それでも君が僕のそば離れていても 永遠に君が幸せでいること ただ願ってる たとえそれがどんなに寂しくても（寂しくても） Why did I end up falling for you? Why did I end up falling for you? No matter how much time has passed I still thought you were right here But you've already chosen a different path Why couldn't I call out to you at all? Every day and night growing emotions And words overflow But I realized that They'd never reach you again Since that day I first met you I felt like I already knew you You and I melded into each other so smoothly It was natural for me to be where you were The two of us grew up together But you've already chosen a different path Why did I end up falling for you? No matter how much time has passed I still thought you were right here Now we can't turn back The special meaning held by this day Today you stood with a happy expression You looked beautiful while praying to god But I wasn't the one next to you And the image of you receiving blessings Of that how could I let go? Why did I end up falling for you? How we were before We can't return to it anymore (I've thought it through, thought it through) Why didn't I hold on to your hand? No matter how much time has passed You should've always been by my side (never changing) But still, even if I'm nowhere near you anymore I'm praying that you May be happy for eternity No matter how much that would make me lonely (no matter how lonely) coded by: a-lyrics

Woohoo! 19 and Legal!

Ah finally the long wait is over, for both my 19th birthday (yesterday) and DBSK's newest Japanese single which also came out on my bday!! very very happy about it, and the fact that they got #1 on the Oricon daily charts. I'm just sad I don't know where I can buy one.

Ahhh! I've become a total fan girl but how can I help myself? They are just so perfect!! And dorky as well. But that's why I love them so much.



Spaz! Such a great song, I can't get enough of this.

Illustrations by Moi

Yet another essay

Yes. Yet another essay I had to write. This time it was for Introductory Psychology. I have an exam for that course on Saturday, and ...er... what is the probability of me getting through 300 pages of text in two days? I'd say not likely...but then again, miracles have happened before.

I can always hope...and not sleep for two days. Sigh.